Well Nate arrived on Sunday with his car full of all of his clothes and possessions. He decorated his room with his football jersey, medals and trophy's and some 15 hats! We bought him a new comforter that was more masculine. We had a job all lined up for him doing construction.
Monday morning he came to me and said I can't stay here, I have to go back to Bear Lake. He wouldn't even give it a try. So he got on the phone and after a couple of days found a job in Bear Lake. He left last night and took all his stuff. We were so excited to have him with us for a couple months. As a mother, I must admit I've cried a few tears. It's very hard to realize your children are grown up and that they can choose their own path. I am learning we do not have control of them once they turn 18. If the truth were known we don't have much control years before that. I have pondered what my Heavenly Father must go through as he watches us practice our right to free agency disregarding his help and those around us. I can imagine him shaking his head just as I did when Nate drove out of our driveway. I know how it hurts. Raising children has endless rewards but also it's own set of heartaches.
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You are the most amazing parents in the whole world. I am so grateful to be blessed to be a part of your family. I look up to both of you more than any other people. Thank you for all the love, support, tears, heartache, hugs, and the fact that you let us choose our own paths. I can't even imagine what it must be like to not have any say as your children get older. It breaks my heart to have to send Tia to preschool, let alone, into the world. But I want you to know what a wonderful job you have done. My family is the world to me! And to all of us. You have taught us so many things. Values, compassion, friendship, but most of all what is the most important things in life. Sometimes it just takes a little while to realize what those things really are. I know how much you and dad worry, but you have done the best you can and we all know what is right. Thank you for your testimony, all the FHE's you suffered through, taking us to church, supporting us in everything we were interested in, and just showing me what an amazing mother is. Please hold your head high! You are wonderful!! And everything does happen for a reason, even when it hurts so bad. Especially, when its to your children whom you would do anything to prevent from feeling any pain. Its just part of growing up I guess, feeling like you have to be own your own. Just hang in there. We all love you and dad more than anything. Have a better day! Can't wait to see you! Love ya
Do I ever feel your pain, my friend! Letting go is the hardest thing I have ever tried to do. I can't seem to stop 'mothering' my kids no matter how capable and grown up they really are. Do you suppose this is how our parents felt? I had no idea.
Love you,
Keri
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